26th February 2024
I'm never getting my first YouTube paycheck...
I'm seriously pissed off right now, and coming off of a meltdown, and also really really sad.
So today was my first day of uni. It was great! I had one archaeology lecture, I met a new friend, it was awesome. Then I had to go straight from uni to work. Work sucked, I was tired and stressed out, it ended. But then! YouTube!!!
YouTube has been telling me to verify my identity for some time now, so that I can actually get money from Rhea's Language Academy. I haven't tried doing it until now because my one easy-to-access form of ID that YouTube would accept (my driver's license) was in the mail. I got it the other day, so this afternoon I decided to try and verify my identity. Turns out, I seem to have registered my YouTube AdSense account as a business instead of an individual. What a silly mistake, ah well, I'm sure this won't have any bad consequences. Surely I can just change it!
WRONG! I am NOT able to change it. Instead, I have to make an entire new AdSense account! Shouldn't be an issue, right? Yeah, this time it's actually not that big of an issue. It took me a while to figure out that it's impossible to change it, and that whole time I was sat there trying desperately to find a solution online. Google doesn't even have a fucking helpline for AdSense! Everything else, it asks you what your problem is, suggests resources, and then sends you off to either ask for a phone call, a message link with a staff member, or an email. Not for AdSense! This time it led me down the fuckin garden path, got me all hopeful, and then smacked me in the fucking face with a "guess what??? you CAN'T ask us for support!!!! all you can do is make a FUCKING COMMUNITY POST ABOUT IT!!!!!!" Fucking cunts.
So anyway, I have to make a new AdSense account and link it up to my YouTube. That's probably gonna take a week, and the whole time I know I'm going to be sat there on the edge of my seat wondering if I'll ever get those $70 I made off YouTube up until this point. The thought of losing that money (which, for me, is a pretty decent amount of money, not to mention the pride attached to it), combined with the fact that Rhea's Language Academy has been performing like shit recently, was all too much for me, and I had a bit of a panic attack. I decided to vent over here. Sorry if you weren't expecting a vent. Actually, I'm not sorry. This is my website, I can do what I want.
In the midst of everything, I deactivated my AdSense account, then reactivated it a little later once I realised that I didn't need to do that in order to switch my channel's AdSense account. Then, I got emails from Google saying that my "payments got cancelled", and then I tried to log back into my reactivated account and Google said it didn't exist. I really hope the problem gets fixed up soon...
I'm going to be really sad if I can't get that $70. Sure, it's not that much money, but it's got a lot of pride attached to it. I'd be really sad if I made my first ever $70 from YouTube, but I never actually got to have it.
In the next few days, I'm going to find out if I can salvage the situation, and if I'm ever going to get my first ever YouTube paycheck, or if Google will keep that money for themselves. I really hope that I get it, cuz if I don't, I'm not sure I'll get over it.
I'm sure I will, but let me be melodramatic. I'm still very sad right now.
I hope it works out.