6th May 2024

Procrastination

Hoooooo boy, I've been doing a LOT of procrastination lately. It's what I'm doing right now, actually!
Basically, I've got three main things I'm procrastinating on right now:
  • Sending my stuff to that guy
  • Cleaning the house
  • Applying for jobs

    • Sending my stuff to that guy


    I love horror acting. I love it to bits, and I hardly ever get to do it. I saw a post on FaceBook the other day from a guy who was looking for two horror actors, and so I sent him a message. He told me to send him whatever horror acting experience I've got, like videos or reels or anything. And I then realised that I only have one example of my horror acting: a student film I did in year 10 and 11, where I played death. Lemme tell you that story!
    Basically, in year 10 I joined the media club at my school, and we all decided to make a short film, which was to be directed by my idol at the time, Šimon Tošenovsky (who has gone on to direct such wonderful artworks as PISSED ON THE SHOE and FRANTA. After brainstorming a bit we came up with the idea of a surreal panel show. SPOILERS PAST THIS POINT!!!! WATCH THE FILM FIRST IF YOU WANT TO!!!! I pointed out that the best surreal art has a meaning behind it, and Šimon came up with the idea that the host of the talk show was dead, his various guests were abstracted memories of people he knew in life, and over the course of the film this gradually got revealed. All the crew wrote different segments: I wrote the segment for Theron, who was supposed to be a hyperactive shapeshifter, and representative of a host's past unrequited love whose life was too fast paced and exciting to have room for him. Theron got played by my buddy Jack Hadlow, and I didn't love his portrayal to be honest, nor the piss joke that the gang decided to add to the very end of the segment while they were filming it, but ah well. Anyway, I ended up getting the role of Erik, the embodiment of death, who had placed the host of the show in this strange purgatory. I did good in that role, everyone came up to me after the screening and told me I terrified them, which I always love to hear.
    Anyway, this guy on FaceBook wants stuff to show from my acting experience, and that's stressful because I really don't have much to show for myself in terms of horror. That role, which is more of an unsettling kind of horror (not what a live horror experience is expecting, I'd bet), is the only thing I can really send him. So I'm procrastinating by writing this! While writing this, I also procrastinated by catching up on all Šimon's short films which I'd missed. I love that guy's style, he's so cool.
    Now that I've written this, I'm off to cut down my segments of the film into a quick reel thingy to show off my acting vibes, and then send it on to the fella!

    Cleaning the house

    Yeah, I've got a rent inspection in two days, and I need to clean the house really badly. My partner is out all day today so I'll be doing most of the cleaning solo. Which is slightly hard to do, but even harder to motivate myself to do :(

    Applying for jobs

    Basically, I work at McDonald's, and I hate it with every fibre of my body. Everybody is incredibly rude, nobody gives a shit about their job, and it's a fucking sensory nightmare. I did a shift in the morning yesterday and was hoping to smash out some chores in the afternoon, but all I could muster the energy to do was sleep. I slept from when I got home around noon until dinnertime, then did some exercise, and then went straight back to bed.
    I can't stand working there anymore, basically. It's beyond shit. Now that it's on my resume, though, other folks should be more willing to hire me than they were on my last job hunt, where I didn't have any work experience. With that in mind, I've been trying to get myself to apply for jobs, but the process is so energy-draining that I've been putting it off as much as I can. Which sucks because the longer I go without getting a new job, the longer I have to work at Macca's.
    There's another problem with Macca's, and it's that I don't get shit from them. They've dropped my number of weekly shifts to ONE. Some weeks I only get $100 from them, and then I have to ask my parents for money to pay my rent and buy food and shit. At this rate I haven't been able to afford an appointment with my psychologist in months (a bad thing), and I haven't been able to save up any money for my solo trip to England in October. If I don't have enough money by mid-September, my solo trip to England will be cancelled and my dreams will be crushed. So I need to get a new job as soon as possible! And preferably a few more ones after that. I'm also considering making NSFW content online. I found out in my turbulent teenage years that there is definitely a market on the internet for NSFW content of me and my voice (it's complicated), so if I'm really desperate I could start doing that too. We'll see what it comes to.

    In conclusion

    I need to get off my ass!!! Bye bye, I'm gonna do all those things I've been procrastinating about now.